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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The Story of a Girl...

Lonely Bird...who wants to Fly

This poem is the Story of a girl who after years of darkness, ultimately finds light and the road to fulfill her destiny. The poem has been written in alternate stanzas of English and Hindi.


A caged bird looks to the sky,
Across horizons she wants to fly.                                                  
Caged and bound she has always been,
Now her only desire is to be free.


एक  बात  वोह  समझ  नहीं  पा रही  थी,
जाने  क्यूँ  मंजिल से  घबरा  रही  थी.
उसकी आँखों मैं  एक  सपना था,
फिर उसको पाने मैं  क्यूँ  कतरा रही थी.


The caged bird even when set free,
Hesitates to fly in the sky.
For years caged thus, it takes time to,
Believe she can also touch the sky.


वोह  झिझक  एक  पल  की  थी,
वोह  डर  एक  पल  का  था.
वोह  अब  अपने  आप को पहचान चुकी थी,
अपनी मंजिल  को  वोह  जान  चुकी  थी.


The bird yearns to fly, the cage now broken.
Who can stop the one who has woken?
In cages of mind, her dream was asleep,
Breaking those, the bird is now set free.


डरी  आँखों  मैं  अब  एक  साहस था,
मन  मैं  जीतने  की एक चाहत थी,
साँसों  मैं  कुछ करने का होसला था.
वोह  अब  उठ  चुकी  थी, वोह  अब  उड़ने  चली थी !


The poem is in continuation of a poem on the same theme written by me earlier. To check out how the thought started, go to:
http://confessions679.blogspot.com/2008/03/about-girl.html
 

Thursday, June 18, 2009

When Time Stands Still.....The Kaise Mujhe Tum Mil Gaye Moment!

There are levels in a relationship from the time when you meet someone to the time when you start liking that person and to the point when you can not live without that person. Liking can be based on physical attraction or it can be gradual based on liking of nature, personality or inner beauty. The more you spend time with a person, the more you start appreciating the qualities of that person. Compatibility leads to friendship and friendship leads to love. Or it can happen the other way round, love at first sight is what you call it, the initial attraction itself results in love. You just want to be with that person.

But is love just a realization of the other person's physical or even inner beauty? Do they lead to love or does love make one beautiful, both from outside and inside?

Further, is love a desire? Is love an attraction? Is love a compatibility? Is love wanting to spend your life with the person? Love is all of these and much more. The pinnacle of love is a point which I call the "Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye" moment. Its a realization which is humbling. Its a moment when you think what good you have done in your life to just spend a moment with the other person. Its a feeling which make makes you want to sing...

"Zindagi sitar ho gayi
Rim jhim malhar ho gayi
Mujhe aata nahi

Kismat pe apni yakeen
Kaise mujhko mil gayi tum"

Its a moment when time actually stands still, you find what has been missing in your life. You realize you could live forever with just that one moment of realization. Its a realization which goes much much beyond a appreciation of physical or inner beauty. These are for everyone. But a feeling like a "Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye" moment is only for one person, because only he or she can understand the significance of it.


"Utar aayi jheel mein,
Jaise chaand utarta hai kabhi.

Haule haule, Dheere se.
Gunguni dhoop ki tarah se,
Tarannum mein tum...
Chhoo ke mujhe, Guzri ho yun,
Dekhun tumhe, Ya main sunu..."

Aamir pretending to be a small time actor to Asin, when he is actually a big industrialist, lies to Asin that he is going to see his ailing mother in his village when actually he is going to UK for a business meeting. What does Asin do? She calls Aamir after midnight to give him the money she got after selling the ambassador, which she had recently bought as a step towards a lifetime dream, such that she can give Aamir some money for her mother's treatment.

Notice how Aamir Khan, as he walks though chauffeur driven limousines to his own personal jet with an army of assistants following him, holds on to the small bundle of notes which Asin had given him. He knows the emotional value that Asin had for that ambassador and thus realizes the value of the money which Asin had given him.



They were in love till then, but this was the "Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye" moment when Aamir realizes how much this girl loves him. He is humbled and feels how much more lucky could he have been to be loved so much by a person.

"Tum ho sukoon,
Tum ho junoon
Kyun pehle na...Aayi tum.
Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi.
Kismat pe aaye na yakeen..."

This is the essence of Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye, a kind of love which makes you think that

"Main to ye sochta tha,
Ki aaj kal...
Uparwaale ko fursat nahi.
Phir bhi tumhe banake woh,

Meri nazar mein chadh gaya
Rutbe mein wo, Aur badh gaya.."

So, have you had your "Kaise mujhe tum mil gaye" moment yet?

Saturday, April 04, 2009

IMT Ghaziabad Placements

The MBA Placement Journey...through G-Talk Status messages!


The placement process as at any institute always starts with the finalizing your resume. That is more difficult than it sounds, involving collecting all your achievements and projects, putting them in perfect words which are "crisp" and "concise". Further, it also involves getting it reviewed from other people who always come up with some mistake or the other. Their recommendation is to "quantify" whatever you do....so things like "Organized XYZ event" changes to "Organized XYZ event and helped increase sponsorship by 78% and participation by 110%"!!!. This is quite a skill, as people earlier wrote "Expert in C++", now some, I am sure would be writing this in their resumes: "Expert in quantifying achievements". I for one, as reflected in the status message got really irritated by the whole process.



sid "has frozen his resume and is sick of the word "quantify""

And yes, unlike "Lock kar diya jae" of Kaun Banega Crorepati(Amitabh Bacchan wala), we dont "lock" but "freeze" our resumes. HOT talent with COLD "frozen" resumes! :-D

Further, all institutes have a placement week where all the companies come for placements. The sentiments run really high in the whole process, it a high pressure scenario...shortlists of big companies are look forwarded to with anxiety and then there are a whole lot of group discussions and interviews before you get your job. Not making it is tough, as I found out, where I got rejected in a interview for a dream company before the actual placement week.

Life changed from happy to:

"Turn the page..."
and more worse...


sid "just wants college to end"!!!

Looking back an interview seems like a small thing but right then when you are going through it, it seems like a huge loss. Negativity creeps in and a lot of other things start looking bad.

I was lucky here, to have some really special friends which helped me come out of the whole thing and focus on my placement week preparations.

The mood then again changed from depressingly negative and back to happy...

sid "is back!"

and then very happy and optimistic...that reflected in my status...the line taken from the commercial of my summer internship company..

"Nazar ko kya chahiye, khwaab thode zyaada...khwaab ko kya chahiye, rang thode zyaada..karlo phir Zyada Ka Iraada!"

Then the placement week preparations started and most of Christmas was spent reading up the economic meltdown.


"What Santa gave me...Philip Kotler, The Economic Times, Santa’s own GD-PI tips...am overwhelmed….Christmas Rocks!"

The placement week was in the 2nd week of Jan, so between Christmas and the 2nd week the mood kept changing between:

a) Self-Motivation :-(

"Success seems to be largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go by"

b) More Self Motivation...this time through a song :-( :-(


" Aditi Maan Kabhi Kabhi Saare Jahan Me Andhera Hota Hai, Lekin Raat Ke Baad Hi Toh Savera Hota Hai..."

c) Then it turned into a plea by new year..


sid "needs the Rhythm Divine.."

d) and then hope...this on the eve of the placement week...


sid "believes that the fog is about to clear....a new light about to emerge...a new destiny about to be written..."

I was wrong here regarding the timing, thanks to the negative sentiments which lead to the scarcity of good companies on campus, that "fog" did take quite a long time to clear. :-(

e) Finally to over confidence, hours before the week started...


"says you cant stop me, baby don't even try..."!!!

(talk about attitude ;-) )

f) Then as week came and went, the wait became longer and longer. It was just hoping and praying that its all over quickly.


sid "is hoping he gets to "earn" his cadbury bournville soon "


But then the biggest realization came that after all being happy and having lots of fun were not related to getting placed. Yes, placements were a very important part but not the whole part. In other words, I realized that you don't really have to "earn" your bournville!


"life is what happens when you are busy thinking about other things"


Finally, getting placed in a dream sector, with a dream profile in my home city days before the convocation and ending unexpectedly with a GPA of 8.5 in the last term, I finally realized that everything happens for the good, and till the time it does not happen, life doesn't stop!

This last status just after my placement, reflected the feeling:


sid says "jab mile thode fursat...kar le khud se mohabat...."



(Note: The gtalk status messages shown in this post are taken through the Kwippy website which automatically saves the status messages of an individual at a dedicated page.)

Friday, March 20, 2009

IMT Ghaziabad Last Day

On the Last Day....15th March....

Vishnu did not want to say good bye...


Neha was sentimental...that explains the touching good bye mail she sent to the group..

Manoj remembered his friends...


and Saikat gave parting a touching, musical twist...ya...These "Seasons in the Sun" will be long cherished and remembered....


Coming to HR, Bhasin was confused...hota hai...

and Shailesh Jha was looking for go back or move on quickly....


but Sid J was just sad...

It took Prashant to quantify the achievement...

and Ashutosh Modi to put it in perspective...


What about Sid Saxena...he just knows something very precious is slipping away...and he can't do anything about it... :-(

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

IMT Ghaziabad Last Day

The RED Tree and other related memories

There is a tree, a tree with red flowers..standing and seeing what all the last 2 years have been...its now full with flowers...but everyday you look...the flowers keep falling...and the tree...standing like it has always been...saying goodbye to the flowers fallen...waiting for the wind to take them away and spread their fragnance...the tree stays the same...only the flowers keep coming and going.

and then...one fine day...a time comes to recollect...to remember..to rejoice...to cry....sometimes you just don't want to move on....you would want time to stay....life's always like that...a set of moving images with no pause button...and then you just don't want to stay in that place...where every thing reminds you...of the time, the image, the moment...which just wouldn't stay!


The tree in front of the mess at IMT, full of flowers two weeks ago, now when the time has come to depart, empty branches remind you of the the time that went away...


Something about nature...changes according to times...changes according to moods...you see, the red tree is empty today...flowers come only to go away...moments come only to stay..etched in memory...years may come and go away!